Written 2006 :Called Hollow

Hollow

Here at the corner at the end of infinity

Lost everything but found my dignity

Woke up from a night mare to find reality

Demons staring at me, trying to change my personality

Pointing at me, judging me with arrogant affinity

Head to the ground, walking in humility

Left them banging, and walked in silent tranquility

Leave me alone, all I want is my dark serenity

Looking for a dream that in can follow

Deep down I am so hollow

My cure is just a pain killer

To keep me feeling the thriller

Looking for a soul that I can borrow

All those years left me in sorrow

Holding the gun and pulling the trigger

Killing me and calling me the killer

All my life trying to hide from the light

Darkness I love and it’s beginning to be bright

Searching for dream all through the night

Only ghostly nightmares haunting me in fright

Woke up alone no one in sight

Trying to run but they are holding me tight

Tell you the truth that feels so right

But I am not going down without a fight

Looking for a dream that in can follow

Deep down am so hollow

Everything my cure is just a pain killer

To keep me feeling the thriller

Looking for a soul that I can borrow

All those years left me in sorrow

Holding the gun and pulling the trigger

Killing me and calling me the killer

Another form ( Please play the music while reading it. Was recorded 2007 before I stopped)

Another form

Today she wears a new mask

To deceive you again

For her it’s no task

It’s her pleasure to see you in pain

Pushing you to work day and night

And see yourself getting nowhere

Every night ending with a fight

To limit what no one can ever bear

Tonight she takes another form

But beware don’t fall

Beware of the upcoming storm

Don’t get your eyes off your goal

Telling you about how hard her life was

But she is the life you will always want

Her tears reminds me of the old falls

But her lies don’t

Tonight she takes the evil form

Revealing her darkness

Now you are in the middle of the storm

She drives you towards madness

She is the life you will always live

Once you are in it’s no longer your choice

She will be the life you are tied with

You will never forget her soothing voice

She will always be in another form,

How do they do it!

How do they do it!

I keep asking myself?

Could I ever kill myself?

Does a creator who has created me

Want me to end something he offered me?

Just commit suicide?

What does death hide?

We can never ask who have died

It's all philosophies from religions, right?

What's after death?

A riddle; Torture? Or bless?

Hypnosis about life being a test

And you have to do your best

So, I keep thinking

As my clock is ticking

Time passes by

Is it worth to die?

Is there anything worth to die for?

Have any one tried death before?

Did your god ask you to kill yourself?

And kill others as you kill yourself?

Remember when we were asked only to die to end oppression?

And get countries out of depressions

And help people become more into concessions

Not to kill innocents based on one man decisions

Are you brainwashed?

If you are killing for a cause

Do you remember how it was?

When killing was only in battlefields in wars

Man to man!

Not B12 To Man

Warrior to warrior

Sward to sward

We have no saviors

From the deceiving words

Not monster to innocent

Media is getting truth bent

Not Army to child

Look at Palestine or are we blind?

Terrorists killing innocent people

Are they really doing it in the name of god?

Or are they so feeble

So they are revenging by killing anyone?

Media just raging wars

Don't know why do they do this for?

Spreading controversies, fake news & lies

Have you ever ask yourself WHY?

This is not about love, It's about life!

Dead

Or was I sleeping in my bed

In my head

The killer is dead

I m the killer

The blood red

The killer fled

That's what she said.

In my mind

A universe inside

If you are blind

The worlds collide

In misery

In pain

Imagine me

Somewhere

Follow me

I m dead

I told her don't run

I told her to slow

I told her life is no fun

She told me "I know"

I told her be good

She told me " I m the best"

I said all I could

She failed the test.

I m the one to blame

It was all just a game

In my head

In my bed

Believed what she said

When I knew they were lies

Trusted what she did

And I was dead when she cried

I was stabbed

I was dragged

I was killed

And she lived

They say soul mates are one

She is still there, but I m gone!

One shot from her gun

I was behind the sun

They say life could never be trusted

The gears of my heart rusted

My feelings can no longer be adjusted

Thank you, I m dead

But she doesn’t know

I m dead because of her

I Can't live without her

Can someone live without his life?

I bend my rules just for her

I ignore my mind just for her

In a hand I hold hope

On the other the rope

That will hang me up dead

If we failed the test

Let's Talk about life

No longer does love exist

No wonder I couldn’t resist

A challenge at the liar's fest

The only truth is god

And still we fight over it,

The road

The paths

The swords

Of the past

Cross roads

We crossed it

Still, I can never resist it

The truth

Well-known

I hide it

It’s still shown

I write it

Then it’s ignored

The first one

Who gets bored

Still, it's me

But I’m getting old,

So, I run

But I am weak

My crown

Was the past years

I abused them

Drops of tears

From my eyes

I still feel!

I remember

The towers

The widows

And flowers

The crashes

And ashes

The lie

Or maybe clashes

A war

A country

A division

A victory

Another lie

If you can understand me

Corpses

All around me

Death

Did you reach serenity?

One or a trinity?

Religion or dignity?

Philosophy or insanity?

Words of god or vanity?

No one will ever know

And that’s life’s cruelty

A stab

Used to kill

In the lab

Missiles they fill

Same concepts

Living for the kill

Time runs by

In my spot it stands still

The memories

And what they bring

This life

To it we cling!

Your departure

Comes as a blink

Whether you are the fool

Or the king of kings

Remember the emperor

And all those fancy drinks

Where is he now?

What do you think?

I can never talk about life

Without mentioning death

Sneaking behind everyone’s back

A second you are here the other you are just ink

In the books or newspapers or maybe just a small piece of paper or a facebook link

Suddenly, the Car brakes!

Flipping over

Is it time?

Is it mine?

This how it seems

23 years

Will my life end?

I am still young

But, I never had a friend

Trapped in with my enemy

No justice?

Or maybe that’s it

The common factor between us all

Time

Years

Months

Days

Hours

Minutes

And seconds

Is this justice?

Someone dies younger than the other

A new born stolen from his mother

Do you believe in justice?

Then you will believe in this

An afterlife, that’s what it is

Otherwise,

Your life will be a mess

This paradox

Of "life" and "luck" and whom they pick

After every thread you will cling

And you still wonder if it does exist?

And you kill me for believing in this

You can never talk about life without talking about death

Without the belief in an afterlife your life will be a mess

Is god an illusion created to be a myth?

Some people saw it this way and started all this?